That's the most reasonable conclusion. The Rebels likely didn't have the technical know-how to shut off the system if they thought to, and I wasn't thinking about it because my first concern was Sonic.
Additionally, Green Hill may have been affected first in a reverse of the energy being siphoned from the Shatterspaces to the Prism, the portals were attempting to siphon the energy back from the Prism to sustain themselves. But with Green Hill and the Prism gone, there was nothing to draw from.
[It's a sobering thought.]
But the fact remains that you had the least information to work with. It's possible you would have thought to ask about the portals had you known, but you didn't. So of all of us, and I mean ALL of us, you have the least fault in this. For a number of reasons.
But I understand losing everything you were working to protect now. After fighting for it with everything you have. That's why I wanted to talk to you about it.
Your logic is sound. [Shadow admits that first. It's true. Perhaps he does hold the least amount of fault, of blame. Yet he can't help feeling guilty. That he couldn't keep his promise to Maria. That he failed, ultimately failed, to protect the world she loved so much.]
It doesn't affect how I feel completely. The guilt is still there. I broke a promise I used to keep going for years now. It was...all I had. Now what I have is this world. Is you and Sonic and the others I've met here. Yet all were second to that promise.
I have to live without that now. And I never thought I would have to.
All things considered, it's mostly the physical toll that's been the roughest. I did as much to myself, if not more, than Sonic or Renegade managed. [He gestures to the lunch he had Shadow pick up.]
But I had only just started the cleanup and not even begun thinking on how I was going to make the Grim habitable, so in the long run this could be for the best. For my situation.
We could find someone with Spring abilities to help accelerate the healing process. Make sure you're in good health after channeling all that Prism energy.
[He nods and takes another bite. No pressure but it is an option.] This world is all either of us have now. We best make the most of it.
Not the most appealing option, but I'm open to it if you happen to have anyone in mind. If not I can ask over the network without giving too much away.
[He shrugs.] It is what I'm used to doing. As soon as I can handle it, I plan to get back to training, and we did agree to let Sonic watch us train together. So that and quests will be my main focus.
That tracks. It seems like learning so that he can support his friends is an inherent Sonic trait. Still, we're more experienced already so helping won't hurt.
Keep me informed.
[He finishes his food and settles back in the couch.]
Well, that was all I wanted to talk to you about, so is there anything you need from me?
It's not a big deal. We may really be the last of the Shatterverse. And it didn't feel right for you to carry all of the blame when we all played a part.
[Shadow nods. He finds it hard to want to do that here. Even if it is all he has left. He had no love for their world but Maria did. Maria didn't love this world. She didn't know it. So how was he to find that drive again? He'd need to think on it.]
I never loved my world or the people in it. Contrary to what some may think. I didn't see some beautiful world that I wanted to save for its own sake. I did it because Maria cherished that world. She wanted it kept safe and saw beauty in it. Beauty she never got to behold or experience herself.
That was why I tried so hard to repair Ghost Hills. Because it's what she would have wanted. This world? She didn't know this world. I made no promise about Ellipsa. I have no motivation to help this place. I exist here and only here now. That is the truth of it. I held no love for my original home. I hold no love for this place either.
I guess I can identify with that feeling a little. When I found the Grim, I saw a clean slate world that I could make my own...but Sonic also already meant a lot to me. I didn't even know where he was, but once I started working my focus was on the things he'd talked about missing first.
I'm not attached to the idea of blue skies or palm trees, or any of that...but he was, so I wanted to give that to him because it meaning something to him meant something to me. That's gone now, was before it all ended.
I'm not particularly attached to this world, but right now it's the only home I've got left. So my motivation is that I don't want to lose another one.
...maybe for you...was she the kind of person who would you to use your powers to protect another world that needed it? Or would she really only care about her own?
She would want the people in this world to have a chance at happiness. To have hope. She would never be so narrow minded or selfish to only care about Green Hills. She would want me to protect this world too. I know she would.
[He pauses for a moment.]
I was brought here to protect this world. To help save it. I have no love for it...but there are people here. People who deserve a chance. I can do it for them.
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Date: 2024-03-27 10:09 pm (UTC)Re: text > Action
Date: 2024-03-27 10:25 pm (UTC)Additionally, Green Hill may have been affected first in a reverse of the energy being siphoned from the Shatterspaces to the Prism, the portals were attempting to siphon the energy back from the Prism to sustain themselves. But with Green Hill and the Prism gone, there was nothing to draw from.
[It's a sobering thought.]
But the fact remains that you had the least information to work with. It's possible you would have thought to ask about the portals had you known, but you didn't. So of all of us, and I mean ALL of us, you have the least fault in this. For a number of reasons.
But I understand losing everything you were working to protect now. After fighting for it with everything you have. That's why I wanted to talk to you about it.
I wanted to give you some time first though.
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Date: 2024-03-28 04:18 pm (UTC)It doesn't affect how I feel completely. The guilt is still there. I broke a promise I used to keep going for years now. It was...all I had. Now what I have is this world. Is you and Sonic and the others I've met here. Yet all were second to that promise.
I have to live without that now. And I never thought I would have to.
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Date: 2024-03-28 04:35 pm (UTC)[Shadow looks at Nine for a moment.] And how are you? It was not easy for you either, the fighting, losing the Grim.
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Date: 2024-03-28 05:23 pm (UTC)But I had only just started the cleanup and not even begun thinking on how I was going to make the Grim habitable, so in the long run this could be for the best. For my situation.
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Date: 2024-03-28 05:25 pm (UTC)[He nods and takes another bite. No pressure but it is an option.] This world is all either of us have now. We best make the most of it.
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Date: 2024-03-28 05:41 pm (UTC)[He shrugs.] It is what I'm used to doing. As soon as I can handle it, I plan to get back to training, and we did agree to let Sonic watch us train together. So that and quests will be my main focus.
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Date: 2024-03-29 04:14 pm (UTC)I will ask. I think Evangeline is Spring. She is trustworthy enough to ask if she can help heal your wounds.
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Date: 2024-04-03 06:22 pm (UTC)If you wouldn't mind asking her, I would appreciate it.
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Date: 2024-04-04 05:23 pm (UTC)Still. More training is always good. I will ask her for you.
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Date: 2024-04-04 10:09 pm (UTC)Keep me informed.
[He finishes his food and settles back in the couch.]
Well, that was all I wanted to talk to you about, so is there anything you need from me?
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Date: 2024-04-05 03:52 am (UTC)[Shadow takes a few more bites of food to finish his.]
As long as you take care of yourself, that's all I need right now.
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Date: 2024-04-05 06:17 am (UTC)[He gestures to the table tucked in the corner of the room.]
You can take it once you're ready to leave.
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Date: 2024-04-05 05:36 pm (UTC)[It isn't like he's in a hurry to leave.] Thank you. For talking to me about it. And for lunch.
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Date: 2024-05-13 04:18 am (UTC)So I wanted to try.
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Date: 2024-05-13 11:09 pm (UTC)What do you plan to do now?
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Date: 2024-05-17 02:50 am (UTC)That was why I tried so hard to repair Ghost Hills. Because it's what she would have wanted. This world? She didn't know this world. I made no promise about Ellipsa. I have no motivation to help this place. I exist here and only here now. That is the truth of it. I held no love for my original home. I hold no love for this place either.
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Date: 2024-11-21 10:54 pm (UTC)I'm not attached to the idea of blue skies or palm trees, or any of that...but he was, so I wanted to give that to him because it meaning something to him meant something to me. That's gone now, was before it all ended.
I'm not particularly attached to this world, but right now it's the only home I've got left. So my motivation is that I don't want to lose another one.
...maybe for you...was she the kind of person who would you to use your powers to protect another world that needed it? Or would she really only care about her own?
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Date: 2024-11-26 04:00 am (UTC)[He pauses for a moment.]
I was brought here to protect this world. To help save it. I have no love for it...but there are people here. People who deserve a chance. I can do it for them.
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